Day One, First of Many

We all like to say "This is going to be my year." We all like to believe that it will turn out to be the best year of our life. Somehow, life throws us a curveball and we get sidetracked. Correct?

At the beginning of this year, I promised that I would take steps in the right direction to fulfill my life. I would do things to help myself feel like my time is being well spent. Finally landing a full time job with better pay has been taken care of. My physical health has not. I've ballooned almost 20 pounds in the last year, leaving me feeling extremely defeated each time I attempt to put on my "fat" jeans. [Girls, you know exactly what I'm talking about. We all have a pair... or five.] I've tackled a long journey through depression and emotional eating. I am a typical major depressive and I find habitual things [usually unhealthy] to self-soothe. Food is my main go to medicine.

In my self defeated state today, I have decided that enough is enough. I am done with my self medicating through food. No more shall I hide behind a gargantuan bowl of salty, buttery oatmeal or beans & rice. This is it. I'm going to claim back the body I rightfully deserve. Sure, maintaining a healthy body and mind takes a good amount of effort. This is why I've let myself go - the effort was too overwhelming, which is unfair on my mind and body. I'm over it. I choose to be happy. And, I know I will be much happier when my body is in good physical shape.

Each day, for the next 365 days, I intend on documenting what I eat, how I spend my time, and how I feel about what I have done. This includes moments I might relapse into an emotional eating slump. I am going to write it all down and make myself accountable for my own health.

Please feel free to join me during this transformation. Send advice, support, constructive criticism, or love my way. Let me know if I can change what I'm doing. Fill me in on health tips or useful resources.

And, if any of you reading this are in the same boat as me, don't be shy. Reach out and tell me your story. I know and understand there are many people out there feeling exactly as I am.